Yes, I'm describing myself. Why? Because it's apt. I live my life behind a facade. I maintain this image of the pretty happy girl, but when I am real and honest, I am confused, disheartened, angry, and sad. I go home and weep with sorrow. Why? A multitude of reasons. What to do? I have no idea.
I don't want to be a liar. Yet I don't want to burden anyone else with my pain. It's silly probably anyway. But it's still there. I don't want to always be the strong one. I want to be able to fall apart and have someone catch me on the way down. Yet still I sit alone as I write this. My longing unfulfilled, and my heart weighted with despair and anxiety.
Sleep is the only real escape and the only place I am able to find some sort of solitude. So I choose it as often as I can, if only for a moment, to find a bit of peace in the chaos of this world.
Someday...someday perhaps I will be allowed the gift of true happiness.
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A search for sense in my life
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The last few years of my life have been...well unstable to say the least. I have been tried and often failed, but in those failures I've also found great successes. The greatest success is a better understanding of my own personal strength and resilience. Not that there hasn't been plenty of fun along the way too though. I've definitely acquired some colorful stories that serve only to add more character and charm to my flourishing life. That being said, I invite you to join in and partake of my adventures and life lessons.
About Me
- AARice
- Atlanta, Georgia, United States
- I'm a girl with an array of eccentricities and curiosities. I've recently found my way down the rabbit hole and into Wonderland, otherwise known as the single life. Please feel free to join me as I document my many unique and interesting adventures as I try to find my way through this life.
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